I'm sitting on this cool green plastic chair facing a computer screen. A motor engine roared to life and a baby cried in the background. Some sort of TV shows were playing in the neighborhood. A carpenter was hammering something somewhere near my place. People around was busy. I'm alone, but not lonely!
And then I thought of this man I adored so much! He's good- looking and a perfect superstar item. He's been on my mind since the day I saw him on TV, playing his role on their music video. I knew him by name, by face, by height, by the color of his eyes, and by everything he's seen on the cam. I followed every link connected to him. And now, now that i knew so much about him, i feel helpless. Why? I realized that this feeling wasn't going anywhere good enough for me to be happy. It's such a shame, we're worlds apart.
Somehow, sometimes i wished i never knew much of him. Sometimes I wished I just knew him the way I wanted him to be. And once again I'm thinking about taking the easy way out. But nothing's like that. I want to get rid of this feeling, somehow. However, it makes me happy at some times. What am I gonna do if i let all of this go away?
Honestly, as i composed this thing, I suddenly feel so alone!
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